Who thinks urinals shouldn't exist?

I'm a straight as can be 16 year old guy, and I DESPISE urinals. I only go to the stall because I stopped using them years ago, why? They're disgusting, and there's no damn privacy what so ever! It's uncomfortable to piss right out in the open for everyone to see. If some fag came walking in it would be too easy for them to stare at my , even with dividers. I spit in them whenever I get the chance, I've trained myself to hold it and not to go into the guy's bathroom at school. They're so ist it makes me sick, women get privacy why shouldn't men? Urinals seem like a neanderthal invention that is just plain uncivilized. During this weather drill in high school last year, about a hundred kids had to be crammed into the boys locker room. A bunch of girls were smiling cause of the urinals in there, laughing at it, even the female teachers. I went into a trance and felt so pissed off at the world. Later I had an episode after we went back to cl, my teacher called on me to answer something and I lost it. I was sent to the main office for disrupting her cl. I think ladies should never be in the men's room, whether some high school girl exploring, a woman who has a job where she has to clean out urinals in the men's room. Or a father taking his daughter in the guy's bathroom, it's just not right! Whenever I have nightmares when sleeping, they're almost always about ladies or girls being in a guy's bathroom. I know, WTF right? It upsets me so much. If there's a urinal or even a mention of the word on a tv show, movie, or someone talks in person about a urinal I just lose it. Not right then and there on the spot, but I walk away. I go some place where I can relieve my anger. And I mean I am PISSED. I shout, scream and destroy things. I try to avoid too many trips to the bathroom so I don't have to even look at urinals. Whenever I get drunk at a party at the bar or at a wedding reception and if there's no one else in the bathroom I'll shove paper towling in a urinal or two (whether I'm drunk or not). I've broken a few urinals when I had the chance also, I'm lucky I haven't been caught yet. Eventually people will find out or I'll get caught while I'm plastered in the men's room trying to kick the flush handle off a urinal. None of my family or friends know about any of this. I'd like some advice from people, what should I do? What are your opinions on the subject?